In honour of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week #NEDAW I’ve got a vulnerable share.
Disordered eating and body image issues plagued me for more than half of my life, truly debilitating at times and yet hidden so well and disguised as being “extremely healthy” ... I mean even my doctors thought I was “so healthy”
I was 13 had just got back from summer vacation where I naturally lost a little weight and the feedback was so positive that I basically stopped eating normal meals and that was the beginnings of a very tumultuous relationship with my body and food.
No actually it was even before that, I remember being 10 and heard some girls in class talking about slim fast shakes (that was a thing way back in my yout... no not youth but YOUT if you know you know lol), knowing my mom had the shake in our pantry I was eager to go try it … so my first diet was at the tender age of 10!!
Throughout the years I went through all the extremes at one point or another, the extreme workouts one hour in the morning one hour in the afternoon and another hour at night ummm yeah that was me…. Then I found crossfit, also became an addiction but this was okay because we were all equally obsessed, so I felt like I found my peeps.
Honestly because I had had disordered eating forever even when I was working out it was unhealthy because I did it to earn my food.
So through the years I went through bouts of Starving. Binging. Purging. Dieting. I experienced it all! Painfully and alone.
The pain was real, it was my coping mechanism, an addiction, unfortunately you can’t fully abstain from food making it a little more complicated in recovery.
Pain is a beautiful catalyst,
I wouldn’t have studied nutrition, become a personal trainer or yoga teacher if it wasn’t for this beautiful pain. I wouldn’t have travelled and picked up all the amazing tools that helped in my own healing which I now use to helps others heal if I hadn’t experienced this very real pain! So thank you PAIN!
I’m grateful for it but also ready to shine a light on it so others know they’re not alone in it!
An all too real problem that isn’t talked about enough.
Men and women both struggle with different forms of this and this week I am sharing a little of my own story to honour all of those who have dealt with or who are dealing with any type of eating disorder.
Disordered eating is real and something most people have encountered some more than others.
In the thick of my journey with disorderly eating I vowed to do something to help others not have to experience what I went through.... a seed planted way back when I didn’t even think recovery was possible.
Realizing I wasn’t alone is what saved me form my pain so I’m here to say YOU’RE NOT ALONE, YOU’RE NOT BROKEN!
As I let my secret out and slowly it wasn’t a thing anymore…. Less and less shame around sharing has been huge for me and I know that others out there can benefit from knowing they no longer need to keep this secret.
I believe we are all recovering from something in our lives and an eating disorder might not be it for you but it’s a coping mechanism for us and I believe the answer is community.
I am excited to share that I will be hosting Body Love community classes for people who have dealt with or who are dealing with any type of disordered eating and body image issues at PŪR Yoga & Movement.
Ps diet culture is beyond fucked up! Diets in general fucked up not facked but straight up fucked up!! I’ve got more to say about this lol but I’ll save that for another time.
I’ll be sharing more tools that have helped me reconnect to my body and rebuild my relationship with my body ❤️
Your beautiful body has been with you since day one and deserves to be treated with love.
Body love is self love.