Mi Vida

Oh life!! Mi vida es una aventura completa!! 


Not only did I not “plan” to be in Costa Rica I especially did NOT “plan” to be at envision! The universe has a way of taking you where you need to be if you’re tuned in. 
I have been tuning into my heart but following the logic left brain too, so it’s been a beautiful dance between the two although I do get caught in that head sometimes but a few deeps breaths and nature bring me back. 


Envision thank you for the most magical experience of blasting into ME with breath, to feel how powerful I truly am through breath, to release what no longer serves and to share that with someone who was guided to show up too! Beautiful and deeply grateful for it all!!  


I already practice breath work with my own kundalini yoga practice and have done a rebirthing breath workshop with @cristinakalyani literally experiencing a rebirth, it was that experience that fully ignited my kundalini and shit was wild the energy coursing through my body from the base of my spine up in a swirl to my head back down back up ... I no longer had control of my body and it freaked me out!! Cristina told me I didn’t need to fear it and that I could now play with that energy. I have been and feel it often not as intense.... Now fast forward to envision where I heard a few friends talk about @gregorioavanzini I had no intention of attending anything and wasn’t dressed for yoga but stopped by the tent and there was a slow flow speaking to me so I stayed not consciously aware that the next workshop was Gregorio's Breath workshop.  
I was in the right place at the right time, so when yoga was done and I was a sweaty mess I moved to find a spot in the shade as I sat down I felt an energy and looked up and was greeted by a beautiful human  who I know but don't know, we have many mutual friends and have been social media friends but never actually met until now, we said hola then sat silently waiting to hear more about the workshop. Apparently this workshop involved finding and working with a partner 😱 seriously I was nervous as FACK I already knew what happened to me alone last time what the fuck was I going to experience this time? How loud would I scream? What if I lost control of my body again ahhhh!! I had a nervous pee moment come up so I had to run to the bathroom literally running, as I was pulling my shorts back up outside the porter potty yuk… I reached in my back pocket and there was a white feather … for fucking real dude this was so divinely divine ALL OF IT!!! HA! I laughed and said thank you to the sky and was now much less nervous but STILL heart racing I was about to allow someone into my bubble and that shit can be scary…. But it was the opposite of anything scary it was MAGIC and LOVE! 

This experience wasn’t like the first one at all, the first one was emotional and loud and lots of pain, shame and tears were released, this was a very different empowering experience and having to share that with someone who could feel my energy as I felt theirs was magic too!! I always wanted someone to share that with because I feel my own energy and wondered if anyone would be able to feel it too ... all I know is wow! 

Gregorio warned that this effect would last days and things would come up, to be released and all that fin stuff that usually happens when you dive in to do the work like a plant medicine ceremony integration is key!  So as I write from the jungle on my laptop with birds flying all around me and two morpho butterflies that came to say whats up … I’m still integrating, loving, learning and getting back into my heart and out of my head! 
Makes me laugh that I had logically convinced myself of a different path just because well my head worked it all out, however this workshop brought me right back to that magical place of union with my heart so that I can hear and feel clearly what my soul is telling me. The heart is never logical but I know what I want and what I want to feel, I don’t know the details of that exactly however my heart is blasted open and after so much work and ancestral healing, especially working on my heart and on being able to open my heart to love I’m ready to actually allow it in, not to deprive myself anymore. Not to follow the shiny temptations that always get dangled in front of me as if the universe is asking “how bad do you really want love?”  


I could continue to suffer and struggle in silence depriving my soul of what it needs but that serves nobody and I’m ready to blast open in all ways to feel that power thats inside thats ready to burst! 

SO all I know is I know I don't know and I can have a rough blueprint of what I would like but an exact plan is where the universe laughs ad humbles me quickly reminding me to surrender to the magic!!


Pura Vida y Namaste!!