I’ve been missing writing for well almost a year... did I even blog last year?
It was a year... FACK it was a year alright!
The year of WHOA as I call it... can’t recall if I blogged at all?
I am honoured and blessed to make my first 2020 blog about someone and something so special... my Mama, my best friend, my cheerleader and one of my biggest teachers.
Not everyone is as fortunate as I am to have their mom alive and well.
Not everyone has the opportunity to heal their mother wound in the flesh.
Not everyone has a mom so open and willing to do her own healing and in turn heal our relationship and then some!
In fact once upon a time I didn’t think I’d be here truly honouring and appreciating her, seeing her and loving her the way I do.
Once I began my healing I uncovered some deep anger buried inside that I didn’t even know was there.
It took a lot of deep inner work to get to where we are and as I celebrated my mom and her birthday this passed weekend I am filled with appreciation and love like never before!
As a child I feared her and now I see her shine with her laughter and joy she’s such a special human and I’m so unbelievably grateful that we came here to do this work together.
It wasn’t always like this before my journey. I dove deep into my healing journey at the beginning of 2012, having dealt with depression, distorted eating, physical pain, emotional pain I just didn’t even know what I wanted but I wanted to stop feeling the pain so started my deep journey…
As I peeled the layers back I realized that I had a lot of hidden anger towards my mom. It was hidden really deep down inside and I felt guilt mixed with anger.
Now we never had a volatile relationship either I just surpassed it and kept it inside but that shit is poison and never felt right.
So fast forward post car accident and living in Costa Rica when I started on the ancestral healing and really working with all the women in my lineage… funny thing I never believed that this would actually change anything in my family but holy fack did it ever! When I came back from Costa Rica my mama was different and she started her own healing journey.
Now my mama and her sister my bff Ju are doing this work together and it’s unreal to share this experience with them…. The experience of life! My life is a trip and to be able to share my woo woo my not so woo woo and all of myself without anything but love and support is just wow! True abundance.
So for my mama’s birthday I took her to see a magical healer and that’s what the 3 of us did followed by an awesome birthday brunch.
I felt compelled to honour my mama because she comes from such a different world than I do, she’s in her 60’s now and she’s so open and willing and receptive. She is also someone who I can now count on to pick me up when I need it. I am grateful and honour her today and always.
LOVE YOU MAMA!!
That being said my second blog will be more about the wild ride of 2019… the year of WHOA!